This is my last post. I'm going to quit this blog. I want to start a new one. This one has documented so much pain and sadness that thinking about writting here weighs me down.
My husband has wrapped up treatment. With all the faith in the world I know he will be fine. His final scans will be clear and we will begin to move the wheels forward on our lives again.
And as we start this new path I want fresh shoes. The ones I've been wearing are wore and sad and make my feet sore. This blog is those shoes.
Ill post a new address when I start my new blog.
Thanks for OLIVE the love for the last few years. Hope to see you in the future!
Monday, December 17, 2012
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Sunday, November 25, 2012
Crud
When does the statue of limitations on being a mess because of all this run out. Chemo is over in 21 days. 6 weeks after that we have follow up scans. March 1 we move.
Everything is going to be ok but I still feel so down and off and icky. And I am NOT EXCITED for the holidays.
Arg.
Everything is going to be ok but I still feel so down and off and icky. And I am NOT EXCITED for the holidays.
Arg.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Halfway to something. No where near anywhere.
My husband is halfway done with treatment. And its going phenominally well. More good news after good news. So that feels good. But it also feels really long so far. And so looking ahead at the next 8 weeks, feels like a long way away.
In other news, we are back on the move. Chicago in March most likely. I'm excited. But it feels like a long way away.
Looking at changing my medical insurance from my husband's plan to my work's. More infertility coverage. 20k towards anything! Yay. But i dont know when i'll use that coverage. Feels like a a long way away when we can look at treatment again.
Also started thinking about adoption and embryo adoption. Don't know how long of remission we will need for that. Could be 5 years. Feels like a long way away. Can't even do a home study until we move.
I know I should feel blessed. Blessed for the good news on my husband. Blessed for the opportunity in Chicago. Blessed for more coverage after last year's failed cycles. Blessed to have options. But right now i'm just tired. I feel adrift. No plan anchoring me. I should feel so happy about all the possibilities and positivity. I'm just not. Is that ok?
In other news, we are back on the move. Chicago in March most likely. I'm excited. But it feels like a long way away.
Looking at changing my medical insurance from my husband's plan to my work's. More infertility coverage. 20k towards anything! Yay. But i dont know when i'll use that coverage. Feels like a a long way away when we can look at treatment again.
Also started thinking about adoption and embryo adoption. Don't know how long of remission we will need for that. Could be 5 years. Feels like a long way away. Can't even do a home study until we move.
I know I should feel blessed. Blessed for the good news on my husband. Blessed for the opportunity in Chicago. Blessed for more coverage after last year's failed cycles. Blessed to have options. But right now i'm just tired. I feel adrift. No plan anchoring me. I should feel so happy about all the possibilities and positivity. I'm just not. Is that ok?
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